The Bible Study Let Down

I know that the title of this post sounds a bit crazy, but you will soon understand what I am talking about. Since Sunday I have been so excited about going to a ladies Bible Study on with the church we have been visiting. I was so excited about being able to fellowship with other moms. Plus, I was just plain desperate! I have already told you how hard the whole internet communication has been. I have talked with my mom on occasion, but it is hard to really talk when you are in a common room. I am sure you can imagine.

Matt was so sweet, he had already taken the boys to a local Mall to get a few things so that I could go with the girls on the team. I could not wait! so I go down to the lobby and pass by one of our sight leaders. We were making small talk, and in passing I mentioned that we were going to the study. She then let me know that it was against policy for anyone to go to a bible study in someone else's home. It would be alright if I were to go, but the girls on the team were not allowed. Oh my goodness. I can not tell you how crushed I was. I wanted to cry. It did not make sense to me. So, I went with the team to the mall to eat, grab some things from the grocery store and come home. "Lord Jesus, what next? I am trying so hard! I feel like everything that I try to do, to help make this a sane and healthy experience for the boys and I gets thwarted in some form or fashion. What would you have me do? I don't know what right i can give up next or how more surrendered I can be!"